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You can't even Imagine...

So I've written this blog and rewritten this blog for about the past month. They say writing is theraputical and well, right now, I need it.

I have so much going on right now it's crazy, I can't even fathom it at times. I've been stuck thinking about selfish tendencies for a while, that this is what this blog is about.

Imagine if you could that you have the ability to be happy with a job, you make good money, you are supported in your life; you are happy.

Now, you happened to come into a HUGE bonus that you were not expecting to get and you knew of someone who needed or could use that money more than you. You want to help them and see that you don't need the money right now, so you give it to them; then you loose your job and your ability to make money.

Selfish feelings come back to ask for all of that money back, you just want what is 'rightfully' yours, since you no longer have the ability to do that any more you should be allowed to ask for it back right?

But this person you gave it to has already used the majority of the money, they have started to essentially grow because of it; it would be wrong to ask for it back. But you still have a little time before it will disappear from you completely. What do you do?

Again, you've lost the ability to make money and some day you may not be able to even make that money you once did to support your family or to live comfortably. What do you do?

If you can imagine what that is like and then multiply it by 20, that's where I'm at; yeah, I need some serious therapy.

Innactively Active

So, in the matter of one hour at church today I happened to be invited to Young Single Activities, not once, but TWICE!!!! By TWO DIFFERENT people.

Uh, are you serious? I guess they were. I told them I'm crazy busy and my schedule is just not permitting it to which one of them told me that I needed to become less busy and just get out there.

Wow, honestly? Yeah, I guess going to church and doing your church calling is not enough. Now you need to be at every extra meeting and activity.

Therefore I've deemed myself Innactively Active. I go to church, do my calling, but right now that's all I can handle. I hope to someday be more than just that.