Take Care of Him Arizona...

Everyone has that one person that really seems to be like you in so many ways, but at the same time this person can be an exact opposite of you. I always thought that my brother, Spencer, was the clone of me in a guys body. Recent weeks here in Germany have allowed me to see that him and I are actually quite different. I still love him though.

My brother decided to out-do me and run off to AZ before I could. This is not fair. I was supposed to leave first, but it's ok. He left on a plane today, and I must admit that I was quite sad. I had teased him the whole way up to the airport that he was going to ball his eyes out. Now, I didn't ball my eyes out, but I did quickly give him a hug and then promptly turn to leave. I knew if I watched him leave one of two things would happen; Either I would jump the security counters and fly home with him (in the suitcase if needed...) or I would lose it and cry for a bit.

Being in the military and either moving often or having people move constantly in and out of the post makes you realize something rather important: Family is the only thing that is going to be in it for the long hule. I've even noticed it as I've grown into an adult. Friends that I met maybe even a year ago, as we've parted we've lost contact and we rarely exchange bi-yearly hellos or season greetings.

Again, it took me a while to realize this, I think I was in high school when Spencer and I finally stopped bickering and began yelling across the quad on campus "Spencer Ray is my brother and I love him..." Or Sara Ray for him to yell at me. I think it was somewhat theraputical, it probably started because everyone would ask us, oh, you're their sibling... Yes, I am... Even after a few years it has continued. We'll exchange Signed "I Love You"s to each other just

to be dorks, but it's true.

Before Spud's mission we went to a D*backs game and made the mistake of sitting next to each other. During sporting events of course they have those love or kiss cams; Spencer and I found it ammusing to see us up there. We wanted to have a sign with us that said, we're siblings; we now know to plan ahead.

Now that Spud and I are a little bit older it is no longer assumed that we are dating; it's moved on to marriage. We always joke that the reason either of us remain single for a while is because we hang out so much and everyone just assumes that we are dating. But since being here we've gotten more, oh, is this your wife? Or, do you smack him around to keep him in place? Makes me laugh, but Spud still likes to make certain people know.

I have often found myself worrying about my family and though Spud is older than me, I still worry about him; so Arizona, you

better take care of him. I've already warned him about all the crazy peoples in AZ; so don't worry ;)

I hear wedding bells... AGAIN

So yes, I'm hearing wedding bells again, but guess what, they ain't for me. DUH! So I just got this email from a really sweet friend of mine 'Squeegie' Steve Bloomfield. I had the pleasure of meeting him my freshman year of college and I just adore him. Steve was engaged last year, but it fell through and it was sad because I think Steve is awesome and should be happy. Tonight I just got an email that he is now planning to get married; to help with defeating the cold feet they are scheduling the wedding for next month. Way to go Squeege!

Of course this puts me into reflection. I was talking to my visiting teachers last night and they are both single; one about 30ish and the second 21. I made the mistake of saying that right now I don't have any plans to get married, my plans of life are more career oriented. The 30 year old kind of looked at me and gave me the "how-dare-you" look. I felt bad, but ya know what, it's somewhat true... The other girl kind of just sat there. I know she's been engaged a couple times herself and came to Germany to clear her mind of her most recent ex. Yeah, it's kind of sad and maybe selfish that I sit here and think only of my life and what I want to 'grow up' to be. I'm just happy I'm here doing it instead of the states. Can you imagine all the YSA chicks that would be jumping on me in R.S. if I ever even hinted about the lack of motivation to see white?

DISCLAIMER TIME: Of course this is not to say that I never want to get married or that I'm not looking forward to the day. It is however saying that my life is not revolving around how many different guys I can say those three magic words to before I start having kids. Life is good as it is.

So now on to less serious things... I recently got a calling from a member of the Stake Presidency to be what they call an EFY counselor. :) Basically, I'm going to EFY with my ward. Now this may not sound all that exciting to anyone, but EFY this year is in Denmark, and I get a free pass to go!!! What makes it even better is that Pres Olsen told me that there is a rumor that any YSA who helps out with the EFY is subject to going to the big YSA conference in the Nordic region for free too. I think this year it's in Sweeden. Last year it was Norway! Hahaha! I'm kind of stoked. Yeah, I think I am!

Overanalyzing Everything...

I like to think about things. I like to think about life and how it is, what it could be like, and what I wish it were like. Today I got the opportunity to think; maybe a little too much.

So with it being Sunday I decided that after lunch and while everyone was taking their naps for the day I went out cruising. It was a nice day and this being Germany a lot of good places to go driving around at. So I took off; at first I had no idea where I was going to go so I just drove. Parked at a park in K-town and then just sat and did some walking. It was about 6 hours later when I finally got in my car to return to the house. Would have stayed out later, but it was starting to get cold.

So life is complicated; when I will know the true secrets of life I really don't know. What I do know though is I want to go back to school at ASU. I miss the college life, the freedom, the social aspect of classes. I miss it all. Who would have thought that I would actually want to go to school huh?

I really hope it's in August when I go back; that's the desires of my heart. I just hope it's what I end up doing eh?

An ample lack of motivation

So I have finals tonight, and tomorrow night, for two classes that I actually need for my BS when I get home to ASU. But honestly, I'm not that motivated right now, I just don't want to study. I have As in both classes right now, so I think I feel good about the finals, but I still want to do some studying. So why am I so unmotivated? I honestly have no idea! I just am ready for this term to be over, because honestly, I'm not planning on taking anymore classes here unless they offer my much needed Human Anatomy I. I'm working on that though.

So what's up? Well, let me tell you... This summer the youth from my stake is going to Denmark for EFY. Why is this important to me? Well, I was called to be an advisor, so... So I get to go to Denmark for EFY. Haha, this is my frist EFY and I'm going as a counselor. :) Yeah, I'm kind of excited! It's for about a week in June and yeah, it'll be fun.

So I guess I really need to get started on studying though eh? Alright, I'm out.